I'm Alone

A few days ago, I realized I did not have a best friend. No, go-to girl or guy. Someone I can call at 3 am and they would pick up. A work out partner, a dinner buddy, a political ally or volunteer buff, like me. I am so dedicated and giving, that I expect that in return. I forget that not everyone will give 100%. Well, I'm tired. I want to cry. I'm cold. Here's my heart on the table. I have only ever been genuine and no one seems to like that about me. I think I am funny, quick, cheerful, intelligent, fun, spontaneous, altruistic. Guess I am the only one. It's not hard for me to make friends. I just have an issue keeping them. Sometimes, I try and pretend that these things don't bother me. I'm bothered. I don't work with people my age. I am at the gym...alone. I shop at the grocery store...alone. I eat my meals ... alone. Walk my dog... alone. Listen to my music...alone. Occasionally someone will indulge my extrovert tendencies and take me up on a trip, bar crawl, or movie. I am not saying I want a boyfriend, because that is just another headache and more drama. Just someone to share my time with and not confuse the situation with petty stupid words and useless boring quips about the weather or the economy. Well, still not done at work. Peace ya'll:)